It is a shame that I have wasted 45 blogs thus far
and have not yet taken the time to write about
and best part of my life:
my loving, underappreciated, overworked, amazing wife
Karen Joy "Lockard" Case.
So through some amazing "stupor of thought" I was able to convince her to marry me 12+ years ago. I think the Spirit must have been still lingering from my missionary days (or is the spelling "daze" more appropriate?) and it was just enough to hook her for time and all eternity. No matter what it was, I got her and I'm keeping her and there's nothing anyone can do to stop it! Bwa ha ha! Oh wait ... the evil laugh really doesn't work so well here.
Karen is AWESOME !!!
There is no correct place to start and there is no end to how amazing she is. So I'll just highlight a bunch of things that come to mind right now and you'll just have to expect MANY more blogs (or at least comments on individual and seemingly unrelated to her blogs) about how great she is and how lucky I am to "have" her.
Karen is absolutely beautiful. Her face is strikingly pretty, but in a soft way (not some over-make-upped actress that deep down is not pretty or beautiful at all). Her hair always smells so good it makes me want to have her head on my chest and be running my fingers through her brown locks. I'll spare any TMI (too much information) and just say that many other parts of her are very noteworthy and extremely attractive.
But it is her smile and her laugh that get me EVERY time!I love to watch movies or tv shows with her, especially those that make her smile and/or laugh. I can't describe her laugh but there is just something about it that makes me feel so good when I hear it. When some people laugh it is forced and fake (I am guilty of this at work and at family get togethers from time to time). Karen's laugh is not forced. It is not fake. It is like that of a child who has been tickled until they almost lose their breath. It is the laugh of a person who shows no pretense and doesn't much care if others find the same thing as funny as she does. It is pure. And when she laughs, I laugh ... and a part of me inside is made better for having been able to enjoy that often brief, but always fun moment with her. I am so glad that we find the same silly things funny. The way our kids phrase things. TV shows like Friends and The Office and Psych. Just plain awesome!
Beyond all the laughter and fun times, Karen is just about the most charitable person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. And our kids follow her lead in ways that just make me want to cry tears of joy! She is too humble to take credit but I know they are not offering me part of ther snack because I do this ... it is from the example of their awesome mother! She was the Compassionate Service leader for our ward for over a year and a half. (For my non-mormon friends that is a huge responsibility within a congregation as you coordinate meals for families that are ill or recently had a child, coordinate babysitting or housecleaning for expectant mothers on bedrest, coordinate friendly visits for new members of the ward, and on and on and on). True, she was not always the most excited to make dozens of phone calls for each "event" but she did an amazing job of asking others to serve, and just as often she stepped in to complete the assignment when something fell through. Many women took the time to thank her for her efforts, but this was rarely directed at her and more at the "ward for helping me out." So it was a very thankless responsibility but she did it with a smile and impressive organizational skills for a very long time.
Above all, Karen is concerned with how people around her are feeling. She wants everyone to be happy all the time. You can see how this might lead her to be pessimistic (because there is no way that goal can even come close to being achieved). But she's not a pessimist. She is a true-blooded optimist if I have ever known one! She thinks anything is possible (and with her it almost always is!) She finds a way to feed and clothe our family of 8 on the most limited of budgets. She is not too proud to take advantage of things like free preschool and clothes from Goodwill. She has a pioneer spirit about her that reflects the adage "Use it up. Wear it Out. Make it do or do without." This may be the result of having married me and my somewhat meager salary, but I think she would be just as thrifty and happy with the "simple things" if she was married to a millionaire! But back to the keeping everyone happy line of thinking ... she is just so aware of the needs of those around her. Her empathy for others is so great it brings her to tears and incites her anger quicker than if something sad or tragic happened to her personally.
I wake up almost every day waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for her to realize she is getting the raw end of this deal and that she could have it so much better! I remain so unworthy of her love and admiration that it sometimes is easier to head off to work and pretend to be good at something than to have to be near her awesomeness! It's overwhelming at times. I try so hard to play it off (because I don't want to help her realize she is out of my league in so many ways) but it is impossible to mistake or forget.
Karen, you truly are amazing!
Don't you ever let anyone (including me when I'm in "really stupid" mode) tell you differently!
You literally light up my life.
You give me reason to live and to change everything I hate about myself.
You inspire me to try harder
and to love more openly
and to forgive others more fully.
You are the best mother for our beautiful children
and the reason they are beautiful!
You are brilliant in so many areas and could be equally brilliant in any others, but you let me have my "smart moments" because you know I need them.
You have talents upon talents and could "go pro" in many different areas but have sacrificed that fame and fortune to be a mother and a wife ... and ...
I and our children will forever be in your debt as a result.
You deserve the absolutely best things in life and I promise you that you will have them! It may take an eternity to bring them to pass, but you shall have your just reward if it takes everything I have to bring it to you.
I love you more than I could ever convey
and will strive to show you more often in word and in deed that
you cannot get rid of me!
Thank you. Thank You! THANK YOU !!!